I always said that I've forgot... but sometimes, this just comes to my mind from nowhere, you know?
It's weird...
I deny this so hard, but do this is so... stupid, mediocre, futile. It's so futile...
I know that I'm wrong. I'm always wrong...
...and I'm sure that one day I 'll be sorry for this; I guess this will happen when I lose it forever.
'cause will be a huge lost. Maybe and probably will let a hole, that nothing will never fill.
I don't know... this is so... weird.
I feel shame of myself for this...
But it can't be...
I can't... I don't... It's...
I'm sorry...
I...